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I shouldnít feel this way,
Should I?
So many thoughts,
So many emotions,
All jumbled together;
Each fighting for the right
To be the strongest in its class.
Iíve been freed,
Yet Iíve never felt so enslaved.
I feel exhilaration,
Yet Iíve never felt so dejected.
Iím alive,
For what seems like the first time in my life,
And yet,
All the life has been completely stripped from me,
Leaving me weak and vulnerable.
This feeling;
What is it?
This battle that is raging on inside me,
How will it unfold?
Will it make me better?††Stronger?
More importantly,
Will I survive this battle?
My world has vanished from beneath me,
And now I donít know where I stand.
Iím lost;
Iím wondering;
Iím confused.
For those who have read my journal entry, you know what this is about. There should be a second entry with a slight update as to the main issue. But this is pretty much how I feel right now: torn up and confused. Maybe I'll sort things out eventually.
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ballerina-chick Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012
I feel the EXACT same way. To the last detail. Did you read my mind??

Beautifully written, very strong emotion and I hope you are ok :)
Natsumi101 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2011  Student Writer
This explains my life right now...I'm not going to add the backround story, unless you want...
MyWinterSacrifice Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I feel this way. I am fighting myself and its destroying me. Does that make sense?
connordavisj Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2011
This is literally how I feel right now. It's gone on for five weeks straight and I still don't know what to do.
ccrae15 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2011
words that are so true!
turtlepaw88 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2009
Beautiful. This really does capture the essence of feeling confused. :heart:
merazmis04 Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2009
thank you. i try to capture the feeling that i'm writing about. :)
ForbiddenFears Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2007
I do get that sometimes. I do hope it's sorting it self out slowly.
merazmis04 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2007
it somewhat has. thanks for reading it and faving it. :hug:
merazmis04 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2007
Most people do to some extent. Glad I could connect with you. :-)
ThePinkLemon Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007
I feel like I can relate to the feeling behing this.. nice job =)
slythesnake Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2007   Traditional Artist
i sometimes like to make phrases like those
merazmis04 Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2007
a lot of my stuff is like that (mainly my later works). it helps to write stuff like that down and to be very expressive. helps to get over things, see clearly ya know? anyways, glad you approve. keep your deviations coming!
slythesnake Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2007   Traditional Artist
ty i really like those deep thoughts that have big meaning like yours
merazmis04 Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2007
if it gets people to stop and think, it's worth it to write it. thanks again for the fav.
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